• mood: anticipatory
• listening: the pinging of the xxafterlife chatroom

carrots, potatoes, radishes, and spinach are all in. when I get the chance--i.e. when the conditions of "not unbearably mosquito-ey" and "light out" and "a reasonable temperature" are all met at the same time--I need to go weed and check on everyone in there. after the flood, I put all those in there and honestly I should have waited, at least for the radishes and spinach for sure. El Niño reared his ugly head and did a bad number not just on our loved ones on the Big Island in Hawaii, but also caused a massive late summer heat wave. hopefully the radishes and spinach will survive that. the carrots I'm also not so sure. surprisingly, what's doing the best is the potatoes, even though they are just some bullshit from Walmart I had laying around sprouting eyes on my countertop and wondered if they'd be happy in the ground. now they are! who'd have thought?

I am still Not Doing Great, like, by a long shot, but I am so fucking sick of being a mentally ill and sad piece of shit that I don't want to talk about it on here this time.

I'm about 90-95% off mainstream socials at this point in my life. I still use Instagram as kind of an image gallery to show what I'm up to to friends/family (and vice versa) but I have blockers on that only allow me five minutes of it on my phone and a half-hour on my laptop, as well as no shortform videos nor those little short things at the top. (stories?) I only have my dummy Facebook which is a member of a bunch of local community groups for local information, and only then can I access that one 15 minutes on my laptop and 10 minutes on my phone. and then I've got 10 and 15, respectively, for Reddit as well (and blockers to prevent me on Reddit's feed). I don't really need blockers on Pinterest because it is so enshittified trash full of AI and ads that I don't even really want to waste much time on there, nor TikTok because, honestly, if you're off TikTok for two or three months--or anyway, if I'm off it for that long--I realize it's just a big trash factory.

I need to update this site so that my indie web presence is fully on show. I've been thinking of making my "me" page into the home page, and the blog separate. also because I blog a lot about how sad and mentally ill I am and, like, that's not the best first impression lol. "hi, everyone. I am sad and mentally ill. want to be my friend?" then I can also showcase my buttons for web friends, and do a dropdown for my other links. I also have way too many themes at this point and I'm thinking of just doing the main pink-and-red Country Bat theme, the VampireFreaks throwback theme, and the Windows 95 theme. I don't know. we'll see.

anyway, tonight we will go see the great Jim E. Brown in Ohio. I have to finish this chai latte and get going. oh also I cut off all my dreads lmao bye.